Three

I have this Christmas Cactus. It is extremely prolific, generous with its blooms. As you can see. It blooms several times a year, dozens of flowers each time. It’s almost casual in its exuberance. It requires so little care, and provides such rich rewards.

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(I have another one, too, scrawnier and sadder, which has never bloomed. Never, that is, until last week, when I noticed several buds ranging from tiny to large and almost ready to burst into flower.  I have no idea why it finally decided to bloom, and it certainly won’t be as spectacular as this one, but it hardly matters. I tried to photograph it, but it stubbornly refused to be photogenic. You’ll have to take my word for it.)

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I’m not the photographer I wish I was – my hands shake, my eye isn’t as good as I wish it was, I’m often too rushed going from one thing to another to take the time to get a good picture, and frankly my camera (phone) doesn’t make the job a whole lot easier. But sometimes I get pictures I really like. A generously blooming Christmas cactus helps.

By the way, did you know that the botanical name for the Christmas Cactus is Schlumbergera? I didn’t, but now that I do, I can understand why hardly anyone calls it that.

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(Post inspired by the WP Discover Challenge One, Two, Three!)

 

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Nostalgia: Late Season Lavender

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When I was about seven years old, my family traveled to England to visit my grandparents.

Let me back up now and say that I have mostly foggy memories of my childhood, and I really remember very little from before I was ten or eleven.

But I remember England. I remember it vividly, with lots of details. I remember the house my grandparents lived in, the walls and the doors and the doorknobs. I remember the shops we went to, and the day trips we took. I remember Stonehenge and Clovelly. But what I remember most was the beautiful terraced garden that my grandparents kept, the flowers and herbs and berries, and the little stream that ran through the edge of it.

It was magical, and I don’t say that lightly.

I remember one day picking lavender with my grandmother in the garden – dozens of long stems of flowers – and taking them to the table where we had eaten breakfast that morning. My brother and sister and I watched as my grandmother carefully folded the flowers over, and then wove ribbons through the stems, capturing the flowers in the middle, creating lavender sachets for us. (They looked very much like these once she was done.) Then the children got to make our own. They weren’t as nice as my grandmother’s, but you could still roll them between your palms the way she did, and the smell was intoxicating. Your hands would smell of lavender for hours afterwards.

I’ve had a profound love of lavender ever since, both for the smell and for the magical memories it evokes. When I saw the WordPress Photo Challenge Nostalgia, I knew instantly what that meant to me. Lavender. England. That smell.

Sadly, as an adult, I have not had much luck growing lavender, though I’ve never given up. The not very impressive lavender plant pictured above is from my garden. It’s trying, bless its little plant heart.

Happily, next year, if all goes well, I will return to England for a visit, and maybe spend some time in a genuine English garden with some genuine English lavender.

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Church

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Returning to my childhood church should have been simple.

Memories, routines, rituals from so many years ago return. Your body remembers what your brain has forgotten. Cross, kneel, dip. Eyes down, hands at your heart.

There’s comfort in it, of course, until you come to the parts where you get things wrong. Because it’s not all the same after all. I’ll never forget how I shook the last time I tried to take communion. The rules had changed, my hands were in the wrong place, exposing me for the fraud I had become.

Some things can’t be fixed by confession.

 

Posted as part of the September Story A Day challenge, for which I have come to embrace being a day late (and also probably a dollar short).  The day 3 challenge was to write a drabble, or a 100-word story. Go ahead and count them – it’s really just 100 words. You’ll find more (and infinitely better) drabbles at the 100 Word Story site.

Image via Pixabay.

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On Holiday

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I try to be cute, making little rhymes like Fezzik in the Princess Bride.

Unfortunately, I am not as cute as he was.  Imagine, not being as cute as a 7’4” wrestler.

“Look,” she says, pointing a chubby finger at the sky, “an airplane!”

“I prefer to remain,” I say. She rolls her eyes.

But she forgives me, as little girls will. Grabs at my waist and pulls me to the swings in the playground. Demands my attention as she fills pail after pail with sand at the beach, never making anything, never needing to. Cheering madly at the ridiculous relay races held between baby pigs at the state fair. Raising her sad eyes to me each time I say it’s time to go home, wanting to blame me for the ending of another day, but not quite being able to manage it.

Our holidays are always too short, for her and for me.

Already I can see her getting older, her small child’s frame stretching into a young woman’s, gaining an inch, and then another, outgrowing clothes, and games, and someday even me.

She can’t imagine it, won’t hear of it.

“I will NEVER be bored of you!” she says, and means it. “Now can we go jump in the water sprayer?”

I’d rather stay dry, so I try to distract her with a rhyme.

“What if I was elected mayor?”

She rolls her eyes again, and pulls me to the water.

 

 

Posted as part of the September Story A Day challenge, on which I am still running a day behind. 

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Weeding

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She had just weeded the garden.

Of course, nobody would believe her. Or care.

The flooding, of course, was much more important.

But somehow it mattered to her.

That morning had been cool, cloudy, a bit breezy. And she finally had her act together enough to do something about it. Found the ratty shorts and banged up t-shirt where she left them last time she’d been in the garden three – no, maybe four months ago. They were actually clean, too.

Found her work boots, too. They weren’t so clean. Caked in old mud, there were twigs and leaves stuck to the bottom. She took them outside and knocked them against a rock until the chunks of dried dirt went flying off in all directions. One hit her forehead.

At least it wasn’t my eye, she thought, blinking away the dust.

Found the tools. They were sort of where she thought they’d be. Dirty, but not terrible. They’d do the job.

He’d always said that she should take better care of her tools. Had some idea of a bucket filled with sand and oil that she should store them in. It had never developed into a full fledged fight, but it came close. He wanted her to set it up. She thought if it was such a good idea, he could do it. He said she wouldn’t use it anyway.

Remembering again.

She put the tools down and went back inside. Sat at the kitchen table where she had left her coffee.

It was cold.

The pot was still almost full – she could never finish a whole pot of coffee on her own, but even after he’d left, she still made a whole pot. Every morning. And every afternoon, she’d dump a half full pot of coffee down the drain.

She emptied the mug of cold coffee down the drain and checked her phone. Nothing. Like usual. She thought about making herself another cup, but instead went back outside.

Some of the weeds were as tall as she was. They were actually pretty impressive – spear shaped leaves covered with long yellowish thorns. At least six bulging, spiky bulbs on the tops of the stems, each with purple tufts emerging. Halfway between a flower and a threat.

Thistle, a voice in the back of her brain said.

Oh stop, she told the voice. Why would you know what that thing is called?

As she picked up the loppers, she noticed bees on a couple of the purple flowers. Were they flowers? She supposed they had to be, if bees were interested in them. She hung back a minute, waiting for the bees to do their business before she took the thing down. No need to aggravate the local wildlife.

While she waited, she looked around. This thing might have been the biggest of the weeds in the garden, but it was hardly alone. She could be out here for hours and still not finish the job.

That’s what you get, she told herself, for leaving things alone. But she knew that after today she probably wouldn’t be out here again for more weeks. Months. Whatever.

There was too much else to do. Not that she would necessarily do it, but it was all just too much to think about.

She’d tried. Really. He hadn’t seemed to think so, but she really had tried. It just wasn’t enough for him, and (if she was being honest with herself) it wasn’t enough for her either.

She thought about just leaving the flower/tree/threat to the bees and going back inside, but just then the bees buzzed away, as if they’d decided they didn’t want to be another excuse for her inaction.

Fine. I’ll do it.

For the next two hours she cut, pulled, cleared. She scraped up her arms and legs, gave her thumb a nasty puncture with a thorn on one of the other giant weeds – this one not nearly as interesting looking as the one with the purple flowers. She was getting tired, sweaty, overheated, wasn’t paying as much attention. And now her thumb  hurt. Maybe it was time to stop.

She looked around at the garden. It was better than it had been before, though still not quite good enough.

Tools were scattered around – she hoped she would find them all, but if not, it wouldn’t be the first time. Just the other day, taking the garbage out, she’d noticed a pair of shears sitting under a hedge, covered with rust.

He’d have had a field day with that.

So she gathered the tools, trying to remember where she’d been working and what tools she’d used. Put them back in the shed. Wiped them off, at least, before setting them wherever there was space.

Dragged the bags of weeds to the garbage. Probably she should be composting them or something.

There was always something she should do.

All told, it was only a few hours of effort. She really shouldn’t have cared so much.

But not ten minutes after she went back inside – not even enough time for her to get in the shower – the breeze died down, then the skies opened up and rain started coming down like she hadn’t seen in years. It was crazy. At first it just came straight down, but then the winds picked up again, and it was like something out of a movie. It rained and blew and rained and blew and rained and all she could do was stand by the window and watch.

The walkway from her house became a stream, then a river, then it merged with the driveway, then everything was under water. The wind drove the rain against the windows, and it made such a racket that she didn’t hear when the phone rang.

She finally noticed, but didn’t get to it until it had stopped ringing.

It was him.

Why had he called? He hadn’t called in weeks.

She stared at the phone, at his name, at the picture of him that she kept meaning to change, or delete, or something.

She jumped slightly when the phone buzzed. New voice mail.

Should she listen to the message? Call him back?

She went and made a second cup of coffee, debated getting in the shower, thought about throwing the phone out the window and letting the waters take it away.

Sipping from her mug, she went back to the window. It was still raining. According to the clock, she had been back inside for about three hours.

That was yesterday. The rain still hadn’t stopped.

It would continue for another three days. Slowing sometimes, but never stopping, until the day it finally did stop.

The place where she had been weeding was pretty much washed away. Everything was pretty much washed away.

She did listen to the message, eventually.

He just wanted to make sure she was OK, because he’d heard that there was likely to be a flood.

She would have known that too, she reflected, if she ever bothered checking the news.

But she didn’t.

Behind his voice, in the background of the message, there was a dog barking. Apparently he had a dog now.

Call if you need anything, he’d said.

Instead, she just sent him a text.

‘I’m fine. Thanks for checking.’

 

Posted as part of the September Story A Day challenge (a day late in starting, I know) with inspiration from Chuck Wendig’s August 26 Flash Fiction Challenge, Behold The Idiomatic! My mix-and-match idiom was A Change is Lost. I didn’t use the exact words in the story, but you get the idea. 

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Frame

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Why yes, that is a giant rubber duck. Why do you ask?

(Posted in response to the WordPress photo challenge Frame. And because giant rubber ducks are cool.)

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Write

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So I guess I pretty much took July off.

I didn’t plan to, but you know what they say about plans? Well, they’re right.

We had a little health situation in my family around Memorial Day weekend. Everyone is fine now, but it was definitely a reality check. The immediate aftermath was a little like if you were to take everything that you’d been thinking about and working on and toss it up in the air and just stand there, waiting and watching while it all flutters about and lands wherever it’s going to land.

We’ve been sorting through the stuff that landed here and there, putting it all back into some kind of order, finding our footing. It’s going to be OK, and I’m starting to get back on track.

Next on the agenda: Get back to writing. Laser focus. No more procrastinating.

So last week, packing to go out of town for a work training, I thought it would be good to take some writing books with me. One of the books was given to me a few years ago by my husband. I’d forgotten that when he gave it to me, he included a lovely note – that’s what the picture above is – telling me how much he’d liked this particular book when he first found it, and encouraging me to read it. And to write. Generous and supportive, and the picture on the front of the note was exactly the sort of thing I love.

“So do it,” he said. “You know, write.”

And I will. Next week I am running away from home, hiding out in a cabin in some woods. Just me and my computer. My only job the whole time will be to write. I hope – no, I plan to finish the book I started last year during NaNoWriMo, and to play around with some other stuff, and to get my feet firmly back under me.

Wish me luck. And good luck to you, too – with your plans, and with everything else.

 

 

(Stretching the definition of a challenge? Me? I suppose so, but I promise that my focus and intent are quite narrow.)

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Look Up

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Posted in response to the WP Photo Challenge Look Up, this is what I saw one day when I looked up at the sky from the parking lot of my veterinarian’s office. Apparently there is a perfectly logical explanation for this kind of cloud formation, and it doesn’t have anything to do with spaceships. I don’t remember anything about the logical explanation, though, because I prefer to imagine that it was a spaceship. Maybe some day I’ll get the real answer.

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Mary Ellen Mark

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Mary Ellen Mark (1940-2015) was an award-winning American photographer and photojournalist who specialized in photographing people, particularly those on the fringes of society. She worked for major magazines (Life, Vanity Fair, The New Yorker and the New York Times) as well as doing portraiture, advertising and unit photography for numerous major motion pictures. The 1984 documentary film Streetwise (directed by her husband, Martin Bell), grew from ‘Streets of the Lost,’ a Life Magazine assignment to photograph Seattle street children. The material was later used for a 1988 book, also called Streetwise, and several later projects that followed up on the children in both ‘Streets of the Lost’ and Streetwise.

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Her work is by turns glamorous and profoundly troubling – particularly the photos of street people, children, and the dispossessed. When you have seen her work, the word that comes to mind is ‘unflinching,’ which is to say that while you might flinch, she never did.

Mark, in her own words:

  • “I feel an affinity for people who haven’t had the best breaks in society. What I want to do more than anything is acknowledge their existence.”
  • “I just think it’s important to be direct and honest with people about why you’re photographing them and what you’re doing. After all, you are taking some of their soul.”

You can find photos by Mary Ellen Mark here and here, and here you will find a 2012 interview with Mark and Martin Bell, re-published after her death in 2015, that includes photographs and clips from Streetwise.

(Top photo via Waterjunebug via wikipedia. Middle photo via Devyn Caldwell via Flickr.)

 

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Angels

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Taken today, using my phone, under the kind of overcast sky that can make statues look like they are glowing. Posted in response to the WP photo challenge Partners.

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